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adventures of the GRANULOMA

been busy busy busy. so anyway, highlight of the week (and possibly month or few months), was the removal of my granuloma. located on the fourth finger of my right hand, it was caused by a hangnail which i ever so gallantly pulled out. this caused a rather red swelling at first, but later progressed to form a GRANULOMA! -cue thunder- it's really quite disgusting. and very very painful. basically, it's just healing tissue that overgrew. how very odd. yes the thing kept on swelling up. and as the days progressed, i found this nodule (is that how you describe such things?) of red, swollen tissue growing and growing and soon it covered almost a quarter of my nail! just for visual effect, here is a picture of a granuloma (the name is grotesque don't you think?) on someone's toenail. mine looked exactly the same cept that it was on my finger. caution: viewer discretion is advised!

behold! thy holy granuloma. it's really disgusting!

okay but anyway, i think i got it easy cos apparently there are skin rashes like this. meaning.. many many granulomas on the skin. w-ohmy.

i shall now share with you a rather amusing experience at the doc's. basically after waiting for an hour to see the dalai lama doctor (real clinic! ha ha think back to options queue...) the dude tells me with such gusto- "i have to cut it off!". and i swear i saw a smirk of joy (if there are such things). then i think he saw my face of shock and fear, so he explained (i really don't think it helped calm me down) that he would first FREEZE IT and then CUT IT OFF. so he jot something down on the screen of his tablet pc (omg doctors are so hi-tech, using TABLET PCs instead of paper and pen..now i knw why it's so ex). i thought i saw him drawing my hand. ahhaha. anyway, he pulled something out of this drawer under the examination table. looked like it hadn't been used much. then he pulled out a can of something or other and a RAZOR BLADE.

(no, he was not about to murder me. nothing a-la "PSYCHO" shower scene. in fact, the razor blade was the size if my pinkie)

so he smiled to himself. (i saw him!) and took out the razor blade. for some reason, he just HAD to show me what he was going to do. he used the blade and prodded at my granuloma with such joy, while i screamed in pain. hello! why are you poking my granuloma!!! silly doctor. it was so painful. but he just said calmly, "i'm going to cut this part off" i could definately hear the silent evil laughter right there. yup so next he got out the spray can, and it was attached to a cotton bud-like nozzle. he placed the cotton bud nozzle on my granuloma and sprayed. i felt like someone had placed a piece of ice on my granuloma. then from the soothing oooooh it became a burning ahhhH!! and i turned away.

(crap this is quite a long entry)

and the burning feeling just proceded while i squirmed. and then the stupid doctor asked me in a very very happy tone, "PAIN ANOT?" WAH SEH. lol okay kidding. i mean like. okay so it wasn't the pain of the thing being cut off but the burning sensation still hurt! erm and then it was over.

i turned around, and i saw- my granuloma on a piece of tissue. he prodded it with the razor blade and repeated to me "this is called a granuloma" . so then he said "now there will be a lot of blood" !!!!! then he asked me to press the wound. by now the burning sensation had worn off and godamnit my finger was hurting like shit. i started screaming "AHHH!!!" and guess what?

GUESS WHAT?

HE LAUGHED AT ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-.-" simitaichi man! so toot. then he bandaged my finger up. damn tightly. he told me that it must throb. oh boy, it was throbbing. apparently if you don't bandage it tightly enough, the blood will SPURT OUT! (according to him) he scared me so badly. and got a big kick out of it.

and he was laughing. still laughing to himself. then he bid me goodbye. but not before scaring me further by saying "if it grows again i have to cut it off again"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SO my finger was now throbbing so hard i could calculate my heartrate without needing to feel for a pulse. he gave me some anti-inflams (which later gave me diarrhea, but, another story for another day) but wah super painful for the next 24hours.

hahaha and the bandage was really huge cos
SIANYING MISTOOK IT FOR MY ERASER!
HAHAHAH! AHHAHAH!

ok so now my finger looks much better. i have nightmares that the granuloma will grow again but um. so far so good. still painful though.

aye this was a rather detailed entry on my GRANULOMA. haha pc dr! maybe this will help your medical endeavours. but REMEMBER NOT TO LAUGH AT PATIENTS! ahha okay but anw the doctor was quite funny i suppose.

[pat]* decided to runaway-.

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